In two weeks it is plausible that I can take a pregnancy test and it will be positive. That is crazy, scary and exciting.
I have my first (and only) lining check next week and assuming that is fine, the transfer (aka “Hatch and Latch Day”) is scheduled for the following week. At that point, we may need to finalize the number of embryos we will transfer.
We have two. In the beginning, I was 80% feeling like we should put two back, because that’s what we have done in the past. Plus the two we put back from the same cycle didn’t work, so odds are (in my IVF/IF scarred mind) that just one wouldn’t work. Then I thought about it and went to 80% sure we should put one back. Knowing that are a good enough quality to freeze and since they were from the same cycle that didn’t work, one of the two have to be “normal”, right? Yes, I realize I said the same thing to make both points, but that is why I keep going back and forth.
Here is what I want from this cycle, if someone can tell me what the right answer is that would be great:
To get pregnant, to stay pregnant, to deliver a healthy baby and to bring our child home.
M said he is 70% leaning towards one embryo and as of last night I said I was 70% leaning towards two. Today after reading a post about a mother who delivered her twins exactly at 24w and lost one of them, I am 30% leaning towards two.
I guess I know my answer, I am just scared that I am going to be mad at myself if one doesn’t work, thinking that putting two back would result in a pregnancy. If we put two back and it doesn’t work, then we can at least not waste another 3 months doing a FET and jump right into a fresh cycle. The problem seems to be I can easily talk myself into putting one or two back. I just can’t commit to a number!
Speaking of numbers, I am upping my Synthroid to 75mcg now. My new endo must have been thinking about me some more because she just called to tell me to take 150mcg this Sunday and then continue with 75mcg in order to get my TSH down to optimal level before the transfer.
In other news, M and I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow night. The same day as my estrogen shot. For someone who is going to use her baby as an accessory. I’m excited, can you tell? Why is it the last few baby showers happened right before or in the middle of cycling.
I am looking forward to going on a “date” with M, though. I hope to leave the shower early and get a drink by ourselves. Happy Friday everyone!