Cycle #5

As I was waiting for blood work and an ultrasound in a room full of infertile  women and men on Saturday morning, I scrolled through FB and saw this post by Resolve.

A little bit of me teared up. It’s been a hell of a road and I haven’t reached my destination yet. I’m bruised and battered but stronger than I give myself credit for sometimes. I’m not ready to give up. 

I’ve updated the TTC #2 page with numbers from monitoring ( I won’t bore you with that). Tomorrow will be day 6 of stims, so I suspect I’m half way done with this part. A few days would be less, especially since I will probably have to buy more meds. Blah. 


The Tortoise and the Hare

We all know how the story goes, right? Slow and steady wins the race.

I hope the same is true for this cycle. I started stims two weeks ago and finally triggered this morning at 1:45. That was 13 long days of shots and slow growth.

Yesterday was the final monitoring appointment and things looked ok. Estrogen shot up to 2676, lining was tripled striped and 10.8mm. A total of 11 follicles were measured, ranging from 13-22mm. I suspected there are a few more eggs but that just may not be mature by retrieval time. I really need 2-3 embryos to make it to day 5, because that’s what we will put back. Really hoping this will be the fourth and final cycle!



High Hopes

We got the call.

Out of 17 eggs, 13 were mature and 11 fertilized normally.

I am a little bummed. I was hoping for 8 and I know should be happy with 11. My RE said it perfectly. If you get 10, you want 11. If you get 11, you want 12.  I just know the more we have to start with the better our odds are to getting to day 5.

I looked at past cycles, and hopefully we will get at least 2 embryos to make it to day five.

I will get another call tomorrow to let me know how they are progressing. I expect some to arrest unfortunately but I have high hopes for this group.

I honestly think this part is harder than the stim part.

Thanks, FedEx

And so it begins! It’s normal to get excited when you receive a shipment of hormones, right?


Since everything is becoming a little more real again, I texted M.

Seriously. He makes me laugh. I know how much he loves the emotional me when I’m stimming, but he does his best to be supportive.

I am 5 days away from doing my first Lupron shot. I’m slightly nervous about it as I’ve read the side effects suck. I don’t think I will be on it long, maybe 9 days, so hopefully it won’t be too bad.

Since we have a long weekend, M and I decided to visit my family. This means golf for M and maybe some beach time for me. I am hoping to recharge this weekend because I know starting Tuesday morning, the next four weeks will be stressful.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend !

Shots, Shots, Shots!!

It’s Friday night and M and I have been talking about doing shots. A whole different kind than we were doing few weekends ago. (I took advantage of being on BCP and enjoyed long over due libations and a few nights out.)

I woke up this morning dreading that tonight was the first day of stims. Luckily, during the injection class we learned that we could mix Bravelle and Menopur into one syringe. Thank god!

The plan was for M to give me the shot if I prepared it.Around 8pm, I went upstairs to get comfy clothes on and start the prep.


I struggled a little to make sure I got exactly 1mL of the Sodium Chloride to mix with the Bravelle. Once I had that, I injected that Bravelle solution into the Menopur powder and was ready to go. I just wanted it over with. So rather making it into a production and calling M up, I swabbed my belly and jabbed. The needle didn’t hurt, the injection however burned more than the Ovidrel trigger.

I must have moaned and said ugh/oh god/etc. M was like “Babe….what are you doing?!?!” “Um, I am giving myself the shot.” He came up immediately. Thank god he did because I was over it all at that point ( I am in trouble since this is just day 1!!) and said I don’t want to do this again for the next 10 days. He cleaned up everything and gave me a kiss on the forehead.

He can give me the shot tomorrow!