Is it possible to become more neurotic over night?
I woke up several times last night and looked at the clock to see how much longer I had to wait to POAS.
Around 5:30 I gave in and snuck into the bathroom. Luckily, M is a sound sleeper. Wait, that may be a problem later on. Stop. Can not jinx this….
The only “symptom” I have is that I’m hungry but nothing sounds good. And after a few bites I’m full and not satisfied. No clue if it has anything to due with pregnancy or just excitement/anxiety.
Please keep the sticky vibes coming!! I really hope the line continues to darken and our betas look good.
I seriously am going to be useless at work all week. Oh well!
I don’t know how other women manage to work or get sleep when going through an IVF cycle.
I am nervous, excited and scared. All I can think about is how our embryos are doing!!
Thankfully, Dr. L called nice and early this morning to help ease my mind. All 9 embryos have survived another night. Whew! Out of those 9, it looks like we have 6 that are of a top grade.
2 nine cell embryos
3 eight cell embryos
2 seven cell embryos
1 six cell embryo
1 eleven cell embryo (this little overachiever needs to slow down! )
Dr. L said that they liked to see between 6-10 cells at this stage, so we seems to be progressing at a good rate. I know that it would be very rare for all 9 to make it to the blastocyst stage and it’s sorta like the survival of the fittest, but I am attached to all 9 of them! M and I made (ok, with the help of science) these nine beautiful embryos and they are the closest things that we have to being parents. It’s actually sorta of cute how involved M is now. After this morning’s call, he gave me a high five and said “good job”. He’s been all smiles about being able to field a baseball team.
Unfortunately, we won’t get any more updates until we go in for the ET on Wednesday. Dr. L asked if we were leaning towards transferring one or two. I think we are leaning towards two (should we be so lucky) but I am trying not to get ahead of ourselves.
Wishing the next 48 hours would fly by and our baseball team continues to show progress.
The second and third day of shots were ok. I am getting better at the prep now that I have a little system. So far, no bruising or major side effects. I am getting a little bit of tingling/ovulation type sensations in my ovaries, but I am hoping it means things are working! I also decided to go back to see my acupuncturist for this cycle figuring it couldn’t hurt. My first appointment was Saturday and we did some mild stimulation on my belly and she showed me a pressure point that I can do on my own. Overall, it was pretty relaxing.
I went in for my first monitoring appointment this morning. I was surprised to see Dr. L in the monitoring room, but it was a nice surprise. He asked how the shots were going and how I was feeling. I told him I felt like things were happening. I am convinced my little follicles are growing. So we took a look at what was happening. I was a little bummed. I didn’t see much on the u/s, but from what the nurse said it looks like I have about 13 follicles right now. I asked if that was good and Dr. L. said 10 is about average, so I think I am right on track. He told me the blood work is usually more telling than the ultrasound at this point. Once he had those results, he would review them and the nurse would give me a call with the results, along with any changes to my protocol.
This afternoon couldn’t have gone any slower. I spent a few hours googling how many follicles I should have and what my estrogen levels should be. I don’t know how I am going to get any work done when all I can think about is how my follicles are doing. Right before I was about to do another search, my nurse finally called.
Good news!! No increase to my meds. My estrogen is 123 and she actually said I had 14 follicles, the largest one was 9.2mm. I hope that between the meds and acupuncture we see some nice growth during Wednesday’s appointment!
Last week I postponed the Mock IVF transfer (scheduled for today) because I was scared we wouldn’t have approval by the time I needed to go in. So even though that didn’t happen, we can cross one MAJOR thing off our list today.
UHC has just approved our request! Woohoo!! As soon as I heard the word “approved”, I wanted to cry and throw up. We are REALLY going to do this. It’s so overwhelming, exciting and scary!
Since I was on the phone with UHC, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to ask if the meds were approved/covered. Just as a FYI, people usually have to pay out of pocket for IVF meds and they don’t run cheap. We are talking about a few thousand dollars. But thank god M has awesome coverage and the meds have also been approved. I don’t think they are covered 100%, but I will take anything we can get!
4 more days until my mock transfer, 11 more days of BCP, and 14 days until our injection class. That’s when the real fun begins!
So, a while ago I found this blog that compared infertility to traveling cross county. Some people have awesome new sports cars that get them there fast, some have min-vans filled with kids, and some people get lost or stop for long breaks. Not us…M and I have a bike. Not motorcycle, a Shwinn. One of those two seaters and are pedalling along.
Well today, we decided that we are going to find a more direct route. Today, we said we were ready to do IVF.
The meeting with Dr. L. went pretty well considering I teared up. I told him I can handle getting a negative test after IUI because I knew the odds were shitty. I am not ready to handle getting a negative of IVF since the odds are so good. But he helped me to change my outlook. This round of IVF is a trial. We are going to learn a lot- how well I respond to all of the drugs, how my eggs look, if there are problems with fertilization, etc. I can deal with this, it’s just a trial.
Even though we are still waiting on official approval from the insurance company, I can start the birth control pills today. Seems counterproductive right? The pill will quiet my ovaries and basically reset them. This will be important when I start the meds in three weeks. Dr. L. said he wants to be very careful that we don’t overstimulate my ovaries, and we will start with low doses of everything.
So here’s what we are looking at:
- Birth Control- 5/30- 6/17
- Mock IVF Transfer- 6/6-
- Pre-IVF Evaluation- 6/18- Bloodwork and ultrasound
- Time to Inject- 6/21- I’ve got a lovely protocol of injecting myself for about 12 days
- Retrival- 7/3
- Transfer- 7/5 or 7/7
As far as the meds go, here’s my protocol:
- Birth Control Pills – 21-day pack (1-2 packs)
- Ganirelix or Cetrotide syringes – when directed.
- Gonadotropin FSH (Follistim, Gonal F, or Bravelle) and 75 IU FSH&LH (Repronex or Menopur) or 75 IU LH (Luveris)
- hCG (hCG, Pregnyl, Novarel), 10,000 units, 1 vial – “Trigger” intramuscular injection. (UGH!)
- Zithromax 1 gram – taken when directed evening before egg retrieval.
- Estrace 2 mg (#60) – taken when directed to start evening of egg retrieval.
- Endometrin vaginal insert (#60), as directed to start the day after egg retrieval.
Even though I know it’s a trial, I can’t lie. I got totally excited knowing that just maybe, Seamus might be “conceived” right around America’s birthday!