Not much to report.
3dp5dt- A few cramps in the morning but nothing that lasted very long.
4dp5dt- Slight lower back pain. H weighs a lot now. Oh, and a BFN. I know it’s early, but I was still hoping for something. Blah.
Some people think that FETs can take a little longer to implant, but when I asked my nurse about that she acted like that was crazy talk. I know it’s technically “too early” to feel anything or pregnant, but my gut feeling is the Olo didn’t stick around. Needless to say, I am frustrated, upset and annoyed. I regret putting one back and not both. I hope I am wrong, but I won’t be surprised if I am not. Maybe I am just protecting myself a little by thinking that.
Big Fat Negative.
I don’t have many more tears. I’m angry and tired.
Angry at the doctors who were so optimistic.
Angry that I allowed myself to have unrealistic expectations.
Angry that my body couldn’t make this work.
Angry that it’s so hard for M and I.
And I have questions.
What went wrong??? Was it because I got up too many times the day if the transfer? Was it because I had a cup of tea after acupuncture? What if something else is wrong but we don’t know because we haven’t tested for it?
I just don’t understand why this didn’t work. Will it ever? Doctors can guess, but no one will ever be able to say with confidence- yes, you will be able to get pregnant and have your take home baby. And that hurts more than anything right now.