Gratitude 

Three years ago at 22 weeks is when we found out that we lost Brynn. 
Today, at 22 weeks, baby girl is kicking away. In fact, M finally was able to feel a little kick from the outside.

I still worry about her but the fact that she has measured ahead and is usually active helps ease my fears. Of course I don’t feel her unless I’m sitting still for more than 5 minutes or until the end of the day. I suspect that has more to do with my focus usually being on H. 

I wonder the baby will look more like Harper or maybe she will look like what Brynn would have looked like? Only time will tell I guess.

I also made a huge step and took out all of H’s newborn clothes. Granted, they are just sitting in the spare room right now, but I at least got that far, right? One thing at a time for now. But I know at some point we will have to prepare her room and get a crib. I’m still a bit gun shy to make any major changes. 

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Whoa…we’re half way there 

The last 4 weeks have really dragged on and on. I thought it would go by quickly with the holidays and all but it hasn’t. But maybe that’s because of how anxious I have been about this time in the pregnancy. 
Out of the “clear” of the first trimester but right where we were when we lost Brynn. 

While I have started feeling rolls/punches  last week I was really nervous for our anatomy scan today. I felt like she was going to measure small. I don’t know if I look small for 20 weeks but I’ve felt my uterus and it’s still a little below my belly button and all movement is still pretty low. 

The antenatal testing center is brand new, as is the women’s and children’s part of our hospital. It’s really nice and highly rated when it comes to care (like level IV NICU). The whole place has changed since we were there 2years ago, so I’m actually thinking we will take a tour in a few months.

Anyway, the anatomy scan went as well as it could have gone. The tech kept commenting on how beautiful the baby’s heart was, and how she is going to have long legs and arms. Belly and head measured right on track but overall she is measuring 3 days ahead and a whopping 13 ounces. Putting her in the 60% for size. 

I have no idea what to do with a baby measuring ahead! H always measured in the 30-40% for growth. 

Do I feel better? Yes. Am I still worried? Yes. 

I feel like we have a 50/50 chance of bringing her home in May. I’m so happy she’s on track and healthy but scared to believe it still. 

I also am not sure what’s normal in a pregnancy. I go back to my OB for a scan/checkup in 4 weeks and then back to the antenatal center in 8 weeks for another growth scan.

Do most people get another scan at 28 weeks? 

And now that you have read this much, here is Baby Girl! Her hand is up over her head. She wasn’t in the mood to be bothered I guess 😉