I am 18w today. I heard the baby’s hb this morning, so I know she is still ok.
However, the next three weeks are going to be as hard as the first three, I think.
The last time I saw Brynn alive was 18w3 days. When we went to our scan at 21 weeks, she had passed. No red flags, no reason why. Just a “well twins are high risk” and that was about it.
So of course, I am anxious and just want to fast forward. But I am also scared even if we get passed 21 weeks, I am using up borrowed time. Does that make sense?
I feel so disconnected from this pregnancy.
I am taking weekly pictures but that is about it. We haven’t purchased anything new for the baby. We have a name, but barely use it. I feel like I am not even giving her a chance, but I think I am too scared to let myself get excited.
Normal given everything or should I really find a therapist?