Another twist 

Last Saturday I got the call to tell me to come back to the office to get the methotrexate shot since my beta went up.  I was told that I may have some cramping/nausea and continued bleeding. If I was in severe pain to go to the ER immediately. 

I let me RE and nurse know that I would be out of state for the week, which was fine since I would just be monitored using lab work at this point. 

Well I went for my first labs after the shot on Wednesday. My beta went up to 1141. I was shocked but my nurse said its typical to see it increase until 7 days after the shot, which is today. If there’s not a 15% decrease from Wednesday’s number, I will have to go back on Monday for another round of shots. They have also requested about CBC and metho panel. I’m also curious to see what my platelet level is know that I’m only taking my Synthroid. 

Stay times!


Suspected Ectopic

My plate is full which is why I have been MIA.

On Thursday, I went back for blood work and an u/s. My lining was still really thin (4mm) and my beta came back at 329. I started spotting so that was the only thing working in my favor. I was told to make an appointment for Saturday to get another u/s and more blood work.

Well, I went in and my lining is even thinner (3mm) and I am having period like bleeding.

The u/s showed a small mass on my right ovary. The RE wasn’t completely convinced it was a sac and said the blood work would be more telling. Since I am bleeding, she said if my beta went down by 15% she would be safe in not giving the methotrexate shot.

I just got a call that my beta went up to 381. F*ck. So I have to go back to get this stupid shot now. What is weird is that my right side feels fine and I actually feel more sore/sensitive on my left side. I guess it doesn’t matter since this shot will eliminate anything where ever it is.

I also found out that my platelets were slightly elevated again. This is now the third CBC that has shown slightly elevate platelets.

Since I have to stop all supplements and prenatals with the methotrexate shot, I will go back to my PCP and tell them I want a full panel with a smear done to see what is causing the higher platelets. It could be as simple as anemia but maybe it is related to inflammation caused by some AI issues.


When It Rains

It pours!

Let me recap my week. 

Sunday night our hot water heater broke. It had some crazy leak and flooded the entire downstairs. Water is turned completely off.

Monday- M heads out of town for a work trip. Plumber comes and says the water heater needs to be replaced- it should be tomorrow. Contractors are at the house until 9:30 tearing up floors and putting fans down to dry things. Still no running water.

Tuesday- Harper wakes up with croup. We finally get water. 

Wednesday- At 4:45am I call 911 and have Harper taken to the hospital due to a febrile seizure. I canceled my beta and us so I can monitor H all day and get extra cuddles. This was the scariest day of my life. I cut back on my meds and am lightly spotting even though my tests are still as dark if not slightly darker.

Thursday- I used my last test before my appointment today and got this-

The top was Monday, middle was Tuesday and bottom was today. I didn’t test yesterday FMU. 

I’m still lightly spotting but based in this test I took progesterone.

I have no idea what the hell is going on but IF this pregnancy is successful it would be a damn miracle with the amount of stress and lack of medicine this week! 

Roughly 3 hours to find out where things stand! 

Waiting It Out

My beta came back at 324. That’s a DT of 78 hours. Lower than what they want but better than the 105 DT last time. 

The ultrasound didn’t show anything (why would it) and my RE wants me to stop all my meds and come back in on Wed for more blood work (with the hopes that it will start to plateau or decrease). He also wants to run a methotrexate panel in case they want to give me to shot if the hcg doesn’t fall on its own, I’m guessing by Wednesday. 

I suppose I’m grasping at straws by hoping that the increase in DT is a good thing. Maybe the extra steroid is helping? 

I realize the odds aren’t in my favor. M and I talked and feel that if this pregnancy isn’t meant to be, I don’t see the harm in letting it playing out naturally. I really want to avoid the methotrexate shot at all costs. Of course if the pregnancy is ectopic, then I will take the shot. 

During the ultrasound my RE commented that he noticed I requested my medical records. And after the ultrasound my nurse commented on how “stoic” I was being. I think they are aware that I am done with them. I told the nurse after two cycles that didn’t end up with even a hint of a positive and another two then ended in a miscarriage, there comes a time when we say enough is enough. I am not sure if she read between the lines, but I think she did. 

I asked her if Dr L was thinking that even though the beta rose that this pregnancy isn’t viable. She said yes, my levels aren’t anywhere what they should be. But the little voice in my head said, they also weren’t where they should have been when it was only 47 and yet my nurse said     to be cautiously optimistic. Yet today she’s preparing me for a shot that is used to terminate pregnancies and used in chemo. 

I’m really torn about continuing my meds for another day. Maybe I will compromise and take half of what I’m supposed to. If the number goes up on Wednesday, I’m not sure what I will do. I guess continue to wait it out and be monitored to ensure this isn’t ectopic. 

When we lost Brynn, the MFM said it was a 1% chance that something like this would happen. I feel like I’m not being realistic by saying this but I would love to be the 1% of people that has a slow and low beta and ends up with a healthy baby in 9 months .