New Year’s Eve

I guess today is a good day to reflect upon the last year and look forward to the next.

Last year was a major rollercoaster.

Last NYE, M and I went to a friend’s house. We had recently announced I was pregnant with twins, so everyone was very excited to see us. Before we left the house, I made M take a picture of me in front of our Christmas tree. We joked that next year we would bring the babies back to our friends’ house.

M’s birthday was in February. I wanted to give him a great gift- seeing his girls. I purposefully scheduled an ultrasound on his birthday so he could come and seem them bouncing around. For reasons we may never understand, that was the day we learned Brynn passed away.

The next few weeks were a blur. I took off of work and barely left the house. I hated knowing that I was still carrying Brynn. I realize how incredibly awful that must sound. However looking back, I almost am glad I held on to her as long as I did. It gave me some more time to say goodbye.

We had about 13 more ultrasounds until I delivered Harper in May. I basically lived week to week. There was no reason to think anything would go wrong, but I didn’t want to take that chance. I was too scared.

The closer we got to May, the more anxious I became. Her delivery had some bumps but soon enough she was in our arms.

The last seven months have flown by and have gone by slowly all at the same time. She amazes me every single day. She has doubled her birth weight and then some. She sits like a champion and loves blowing raspberries. She cracks up when we sing “The Itsy Bitsy Spider” and hates oatmeal (it makes her gag).

I still tear up sometimes when I sing “You Are My Sunshine” to her. I am getting better about it, though.

In 2015, M and I hope to welcome another child. No, I am not pregnant (at least that I know of!) but we would love another little miracle.

I hope you all have a very Happy New Year!


10DPO, Teething, and Ornaments

This is my life- multi-tasking!

I had AF like cramps the other day and thought, hmm I guess I am due for AF to show soon, I wonder when. I actually had to look at FF to see what day I am! A year ago, I could tell you what day I was on, what my temperature was, and all the other TWW symptoms. Today happens to be 10DPO. Our odds are low so I am not going to bother wasting money on a test unless I don’t get my period next week. I suppose the distraction is nice.

Speaking of the distraction…holy teething. M is constantly saying he doesn’t understand how such a little thing can produce so much saliva. He’s right. Bibs are constantly wet and there is usually a pool of drool where ever H has been. Anything she can get her little hands on goes straight in her mouth. We have cold teething rings/keys, wooden teething balls, silicone teething things, books, blocks….it doesn’t matter. If she can’t fit it in her mouth, she growls. Seriously. I can not wait for her teeth to break through. I see them through her gums, but nothing popping up yet. I know I shouldn’t rush it, but I can’t wait to see what she is going to look like!

Last weekend we got her 6 month pictures taken, and I can’t wait to see those! We did a few family holiday shots as well, which I plan to use for our holiday cards. I remembered to take Brynn Bear (BB) with us, but I am not sure those pictures turned out great.

We will be spending Christmas with my family this year, which I am so excited about! I also am prepared for it to be sad, just as Thanksgiving was. I made photobooks of H’s first 6 months for the Grandparents as the presents, but also wanted to do something for Brynn. I am part of a loss group on FB and a lot of the ladies mentioned creating ornaments. I thought that was a great idea, so I found a store on etsy and placed an order.  It’s a glass ornament that says: image1

As soon as I saw it, I cried and knew it was perfect. I ordered a different one for us to hang on our tree since H will also have one for her 1st Christmas.

I hope the grandparents love it as much as I do!